band practice

my friend nino texted me last night if i want to watch their band practice,their band is fushion era(i dont know if the spelling is correct,i have to ask the spelling to him,*chuckles*) We were in a close airconditioned room and i think my ears cant hear anything when i went out, the music is too loud inside and i was there for more than 1hour. next time i know i have to bring earphones to protect my ears. they practiced 2 of their compositions and its cool,i like it,hehe....

they have a gig tonight at libbys and nino asked me to come with them, he will fetch me if he finish work early. dominic is scolding me this morning because im still sick and i went out last night and stayed up late instead of resting :/ ok my fault.. i dont know if i will still go tonight, come what may, dom might get mad to me because he wants me to rest till i get well. im not used to just lying the whole day...

i went to hospital last night to have check up, they prescribed me expensive anti-biotics and advised me, hmmm... i have no voice now :S

my day is very tiring

i woke up this morning feeling so worst.my throat aches like hell. and then i have fever, thanks to those who shows their concerns, love you guys! thanks nani for the text message.

even im sick i have to go to the mall, to buy an electric stove because in times like this that im weak,i cant go out to buy food, i need to be able to cook for my food at home. its very costly you know.its been 2months ive been buying food everyday outside, e.g. jolibee,KFC,burger king,blah blah blah....i need to cut down on those things. i had super shopping today,im so tired!i was holding 6 shopping bags!!! which are super heavy,heavier than me i bought some pots,electric stove,groceries(noodles,canned goods...),things for the kitchen. im happy that im able to have things in my apartment,before it was so empty. im buying things little by little,maybe next time a small fridge,hehe! its pretty tough living alone because theres so many expenses but im very proud to be fully independent and to be able to stand on my own.this is one of my dreams, to be independent in life, and now im making it happen.i also bought some tea like rose black tea and lichee black tea.

i took photos of my itsy bitsy kitchen

when i was walking in the mall,i saw a very cute dog in a pet shop,hes sleeping and i took photo, hes super duper cute, i want to have that kind of puppy someday, its a baby pitbull, i really love dogs, i so want to have one *dreams

not a very good day coz i dont feel well

i feel sick today, i got a sore throat i hope it wont get worst, im avoiding to stay up late these days and i am able to sleep at 12-1am which is the early time for me to sleep.

i feel so weak, even the person hurt me, im still not moved on,i still do miss him,feel the longingness and feel lost without him. when can someone be really there for me?

yum yum yum!!!

lets peek into my grocery bag *peeks* haha!full of junk foods, pringles,chips

but i also bought my favorite,cookies!!!oatmeal cookies with raisins,yum yum yum!!!

i love to eat,can you blame me?

now theres no excuse not to eat for me when i feel hungry, im always hungry like every 2hours

i have voracious apetite,dont nag me now,i know junk foods are not healthy but i bought some bread too and look the cookies are healthy

my look alike celebrity

lexia first uploaded our photos, and my look alike was hilary duff.i tried my solo photo and now its meg ryan,do i look like her? who agrees? another one is mary kate olsen

*smiles and looks at everyone*

V for Vendetta

One of the best movies ive ever watch, this is a must watch film. Natalie Portman had her hair shaved here. In one of the lines in the film, the people shouldnt fear the government but the government should fear its people. So many drastic changes are happening to our world, wherein it leads to worst situation, one man urging his fellow citizens to rise up against tyranny and oppression. We shouldnt live in fear...

I need some changes in my life

Since i got home from HK, ive been lazy!Because i was sick and weak that time... I didnt work out since then. Then some asshole makes me feel worst... These past few days, im sooo lazy,crappy,shitty,down... I feel so tired and bored with my life which i shouldnt feel. Life is so beautiful and we should cherish every moments of it. Thanks for Amro and Lexy who keeps cheering me up and always checking on me. You are so sweet!

I definitely need changes, i need to look into a different perspective of my life,I dont want to waste my life, i have given a chance to make my life worth it. I want to discover myself, my skills and abilities, where im good at! I want to excel, I need some extra activites besides working.

I want to do many things, I want to go into swimming lessons,guitar lessons,aerobics,gym,yoga,church choir, basically i want to do everything.I want to try it all! I started inquiring, but i need to think of my budget too,im living alone and i cant just do what i want,coz i pay for everything by myself. I will inquire as of now and make a plan so next month, May, ill be more productive in my life. I can be able to interact with more people that way.I want to spend my life to the fullest. Im also planning to continue my studies, since im only a high school grad, ill be saving for that as soon as i have stabilized my life.

Everything is on my hands,my life! Whatever turns i make,its all up to me!No one can control me nor can tell me what to do, some people envy me,it has advantages and disadvantages too. For me its all about, how you live your life...The center of my life is God and my work... Im giving all my best, i dont aim to be rich someday, i dont aim to get higher salary. I aim, is to make God proud of me. My way of thinking is so different now. Money is so important in our daily life but i dont wish to live easily because i got money. Im contented that i have shelter to live in,food to eat everyday, good health and friends that can accept me for who I am. I aim to reach the end, with my hardwork,perseverance and determination.Nothing is easy, if we get bruised all over because of too much sufferings, remember if your intention is good, it will pay good rewards in the end.

My Weakness

yuri and sabrina


yuri

last night i feel so tired,stressed so i went out to my friend's shop just to hang out.the night is quiet,boring then came a neighbor that i just met last night,whose name is Bill with his dog yuri.i feel so happy seeing two cute dogs,i suddenly miss my pet before,candy who will be forever in my heart. im a dog lover,i had dog before and i treated it not as a pet but as a friend.sometimes when i cry, candy will just look at me and giving me that puppy look.

they melt my heart.i forgot the breed of these dogs,they are pure white,hairy.sabrina likes me a lot,she never barks at me nor scratches me.i dream to have a dog again someday.but the problem is i have no place to keep a dog,my apartment is very small.i cant afford to have one.im not financially stable as of now.if ill have a dog again someday,ill love it with all my heart and make sure its really taken care of.im always busy too and im thinking if ill have one,ill have no time to train it,which is the most important thing or else it will be a headache pooping just anywhere and pissing.i took photos of these two dogs last night but its very hard to get a good shot because they are moving a lot last night.sabrina is very excited seeing yuri,hehe!

i also drank last night,im not drunk but its been a while since i drink :)

what im avoiding...

i feel sad right now, i hope sis u wont think less of me coz i dont have the chance to talk to you these days... i feel bad that im not there for her when she needed me the most *cries*i really feel so sad! i didnt mean to make u feel like that...things might not be exactly what it is before coz of our busy lives,but the love wont change sis.you will always be my dearest sis!im still the same,just busy...im sorry sis,i really am!

will u let yourself fall in love with someone that cant be there for you?when you feel that you are ready to love someone, then it seems its not the right guy... im used to then why should i seek love?i never get use myself to depend on others,since i start living by my own,i told myself,i can make it without anyone's help nor presence...i always keep myself busy so that i wont feel the loneliness around me,i dont need someone to love me!i wish all men can just see me as a friend.i hate expecting and i hate getting dissapointed.im scared to love and im scared to get hurt.i dont even know how to love...

dont i deserve to feel special,be loved and to feel cared for?

better end it now than to sink in this hole...

my eyebrow piercing

its holiday here and i was so bored and lonely these past few days.finally the malls are open today,i went out to watch 'the hills have eyes' its so gruesome,not that good! but at least i was entertained and thrilled.i like suspense,horror movies.i like to feel the rush and the feeling of getting surprise and scared,hehe!

after that i went to a body piercing shop,look i have my eyebrow pierced today,

i like my eyebrow to be pierced a long long time ago,i always dream to have one.now i got it*jumps up and down*next time i want nose piercing.

im also thinking to get a tattoo at the back of my neck,but im still thinking about it coz its permanent.i tried henna tattoo before that lasted for more than a week.i dont know,hmmm....

i just do what i like in my life,except for drugs.we only have one life to live so why not enjoy and do the things u love and want till it last,as long as im not hurting anyone,aight?

Meeting Lexia

well last night me and lexia met,together with her cousin ace. we had super great time! we went to a disco bar, dancing till we drop. what time did we get home? 5am,haha!

actually we havent had enough of dancing in the dance floor,met some cute guys,haha! lexia is really a cool chick,very fun person like me. we are both crazy! next assignment boracay!haha! gotta do some work out to be able to show some abs

we took some real crazy photos,wait for it tomorrow,*excited face*

im happy to meet zorpian friends in person, now i just cant say that we are net friends but personal friends... for sure this will happen again and next time,it will be a blast

this is one of the photos of us together

check out for more photos in the album 'night out with lexy'

im back!

im back now in phil, i really had a great time with everyone in Hong Kong. well the bad thing is they have seen me in my worst state because i got really really sick. and im thinking why now?why at this time? there are some places im not with them because i have to go back to hotel to rest

but im thinking id rather get sick and meet them than not at all,hehe! we are some crazy peeps really! i could not imagine calvin being so funny,calvin you bloody funny one,ROFL!!! *sings* i love bugs!oops*covers mouth*

the last night,we really had fun,we sang till we drop.*claps hands* we should take a video of that,darn! but but but.... most unforgettable moment for me. now im back here,im missing them! *teary eyes* i love you guys,mwah mwah mwah!!!!

*coughs coughs* my apartment is so dusty *coughs*

i hope to meet the china team next time


check out for more photos in my album,hong kong