what im avoiding...

i feel sad right now, i hope sis u wont think less of me coz i dont have the chance to talk to you these days... i feel bad that im not there for her when she needed me the most *cries*i really feel so sad! i didnt mean to make u feel like that...things might not be exactly what it is before coz of our busy lives,but the love wont change sis.you will always be my dearest sis!im still the same,just busy...im sorry sis,i really am!

will u let yourself fall in love with someone that cant be there for you?when you feel that you are ready to love someone, then it seems its not the right guy... im used to then why should i seek love?i never get use myself to depend on others,since i start living by my own,i told myself,i can make it without anyone's help nor presence...i always keep myself busy so that i wont feel the loneliness around me,i dont need someone to love me!i wish all men can just see me as a friend.i hate expecting and i hate getting dissapointed.im scared to love and im scared to get hurt.i dont even know how to love...

dont i deserve to feel special,be loved and to feel cared for?

better end it now than to sink in this hole...