why im always getting sick?i just got sick two weeks ago and i went to hospital and medicines are quite expensive. im such a weakling! i know my daily routine is not healthy. i always stay up late, i drink too much recently, i told you i went clubbing last sunday and i drank beer and two shots of tequila which im not used to. i only drink beer but not hard liquor, i went home 7am and just had 3hours of sleep, i have to start my day because i got loads of work to do. i dont have enough sleep anymore, im in a depress state and i just work work work in order for me not to feel down. i keep myself occupied,mentally and physically thats why i always make sure im doing something and everything is done before i go to bed. im not eating healthy too, i didnt go out for a day to buy food.i just ate biscuits and bread and noodles. i try to rest my body and mind but my body automatically wakes up early. when i say im depress, i dont mean i just sit and sulk in a corner, im really very busy actually like i always do but the way i feel inside is different like im sinking...im thinking maybe thats why my immune system is not strong because im feeling like this. can you force your inner self to be happy even you are not? but inspite of all,i have to take care of myself, what i got is myself....im pissed because of getting sick it will affect my work and i dont want that to happen. i dont want to neglect it even a little,damn!i need to be well!
today i think i got over fatigue, i cleaned my place,did some laundry,went grocery carrying heavy plastic bags, walk here and there
my heart is bruised....
sorry for sounding pathetic but i need to release it,maybe it will lessen the heavy load im feeling now...
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