days of nothing

a strong typhoon striked manila(one of the strongest in 11 years) and its really strong that it blew away big trees in highways and road and damaged a lot of electric posts and telephone lines. right now, we dont have electricity for 2 days already and i dont know when it will be restored. im actually in jaymie's place because their electricity is restored already. i cant even call in our area because there is no dial tone. waaaahhhh!!!! i feel like im in ghost's town in our area where so much silence around us. i really cant stay long at my place where im alone and no electricity and nothing to do and talk to :S

hope everything will be restored soon.

Do Not Love Me

Do not love me if you will just leave
I do not want to measure love by months or days
Do not love me if my pain will give you satisfaction and joy
I would rather be cold and hated then

Do not love me for im not someone ideal
I laugh hard and act silly at times
Do not love me because im not perfect
Im a bit less and a bit too much in a way

I will just watch you leave
Will I hear "I want you back to me"?
I will just close the door
Would I still find you standing out there?

I never keep anyone
For the right one, I do not know anymore
I never go after for the wasted love
It just left me into broken pieces

If you would just give me hell, Do not love me

composed by: dee

Loneliness

The world we have is indeed a crowded place
Why is there loneliness, I often ask
An unavoidable feeling that chooses no one?
Or just a normal state with having no one?

Different people, we are surrounded by
We love a few and we hate some
Random facts that we tell to one another
And yet a stranger I have become

Would you feel hated, unawanted or grateful?
For this feeling that makes everyone equal
Not by your own choice but part of humanity
The drowning feeling from the highest cliff you are falling

We live, we strive, we earn
But what is really there to gain?
For things that have its limited time
The astounding beauty, fame and glory
With this have you found the value of your life?

Simple words of "I love you", "Thank you" and "Im sorry"
For the genuine friendship you offer
For eternal love that rarely comes
Exempts me from this loneliness
Even just for an hour, a minute, a second
Because we are part of something

Im a part of you...

composed by: dee

From Afar I Have You As My Angel

From afar, an angel my eyes had laid upon
In the deep darkness of the night, you can see him
With his wings broken and bruised heart
A great warrior he portrays

I try to reach out
In our lost world, for you i kept looking
While you remain to be numb and blind
Thinking that one day, I will grow tired

An angel, a bestfriend
For me is what you are
Quite impossible to hear, for you I trust everything
With this distance that makes everything hard

An imaginary is what I am to you
An only dream that separates me from your nightmares
Different worlds we have yet something can bind us together
Treasuring your letters that keeps you closer to mine

Soon or might be never
Where we long to hug each other tight
Like the sun that shines brightly in the sky
Like a ship that sails in the peaceful deep blue sea
Symbolizing you and me

J an angel you truly are!

The love that is bitter yet so sweet

In an unexpected time and place, I met you
We danced and I felt I don’t like this moment to end
You held my hand
Your kiss that electrified me
Those early mornings you woke me up by your calls and messages

We made love, wished the time wont pass by so fast
Where I have those sound sleep with your arms wrapped around me
The words of I love you we whisper in each other’s ears
Filling my heart with so much happiness

Everything suddenly changed
The love that’s burning like fire is as cold as the ice now
So many nights I shed so much tears
For questions I cant find the answers

Why did I loose you?
Even every promises broken has been forgiven
Where did I go wrong?
Seems like everything I’ve done is still nothing for you
My everyday has turned into waiting days
Why did my love ended like this?

I’m missing you so badly
Even you taught me how to hate, still my heart cries for you
I hope in one of your lonely nights, my pain will matter to you.

= composed by: dee =

Thoughts

I have wasted so many opportunity
have dissapointed those expecting ones
have broken so many hearts, scared to be too close
Thats why I end up breaking mine

All my life i keep searchin'
keep askin' and dreamin', of how it is like to live a life thats easy and luxurious
Until I realized, it didnt make me feel satisfied

Can you give me back my old memories?
The childhood past, reminiscing the laughter of an innocent child
The warmth of my loved ones' hug that made me smile and cry

Where are you now?
Why have you left so suddenly?
The life that is once colorful has turned black and blue
Please do take care of them, maybe soon we will meet again

Im rebel
From future i have ran away, with so many possibilities
I broke the rules
I have taken many risks and dangers
Just to reach what my heart truly desires
Is unknown

= composed by: dee =

one of the happiest moment in my life is today!

why do we mankind need to commit a mistake before we realize that theres something to be done, a need for a change in order to make things right. In the first place, how would we know we have won in a battle without facing our opponents? Will you regret if you havent realize its wrong? Its now or never, do we have to wait for the time to end? until we realize its too late. it doesnt require time, it requires readiness to accept, forgive and move on in life. any day and any time it can be a day of a new beginning. the question is are you ready?

= i feel so free today, free from everything =