im sick,pissed,tired,sleepy,weak

i am sick today,woke up and have a fever.i need a rest,im sooo sleepy,tired and pissed!

last night i slept at 4am and its been 4straight nights ive been drinking.i know its bad but i just feel i need to drink so i cant feel these emotions temporarily.some people cant accept me if they cant get anything from me or have an advantage of me.why is that?if they cant, then im no good at all!fuck them!why is it hard to find and make friends?

im so annoyed too to my connection,i cant be productive as much as i want because of this stupid fucking connection that i have,its always acting up,slow,etc etc etc!!!my time is wasted all the time because of fucking maintenance and etc etc etc!!!

ok enough of this whining!*closes eyes*